Its a new year, again. Some people see the new year as fresh start at something new and putting everything from the previous year behind. Others just see it as another year gone by and us getting older. Looking back and seeing all the little kids we use to know who have now all grown up really makes us see how many years have passed. Its ironic how we look at kids who are now 18 or so and we think of them as youngin's...we were just there 5 years ago! (well 6 for most of us) Oh how I hate the recognition of old age, this was 2 days ago by the way, when in mid conversation at dinner my mind slowly drifted and I thought to myself...I want to stick myself in a kitchen and start cooking my own dinner. This slowly cascaded to throwing a dinner party with wine and games and realizing that a few months ago, I yammered about you know you are getting old when you can barely stay up past 12 and will sadly end up hosting dinner parties with your friends and playing board games. WTF! So what can you say when you get yourself to this point. What does it all mean? Psh, heck if I know, and even if I did I would probably be in some fantasy world with mystical powers where you hang off roof tops just in like those dumb superhero movies. Why do they always have them linger around there? Anyhow...lately I have been thinking about where my life is headed. Where do I see myself going in terms of life, love and career. You ever feel trapped? Like some how everytime you get a deja vu you wonder, has your life been decided? Is it some ill fate thats been mapped out for you? Like a plague where everyone has to follow this norm: wake up, go to work, go home, tell your girlfriend you love her, go to sleep, and at the end of the week do something unwork related (sex, drink, or something thats in season, aka snowboard or beach). So if I do the math, we're born and for 5 or 6 years, we're spoon fed, then we go to school for 17 years (16 for those that didn't end up at Drexel), afterwards we're 22 and its off to work world 43 years but we'll just say 40 because 3 of those years will be spent fucking around. Retire at 65 and nothing else to do but die. So what does it all mean! I don't know but I will tell you this...
This year, as we go to work everyday, we will find out what we want to do with our career, if not, there is always next year.We will think about how we would do something from last year differently and that will translate how things move forward this year.Courage will be found to take on challenges, old and new.Because we are a year older, we will become more desensitized and wonder if its a bad thing, if it makes us less human, if it makes us regret the way we will become but I think it won't because its a cruel world. And finally, everything that we think will happen might not because life is unpredictable. So I think I found the answer to the question...what does this all mean?! why must we persist to keep asking whats it all about?
...basically, its just another year and I just wasted 10 mins of your life because none of this matters. You do what you want and I take it one day at a time. Ha! Happy New Year! |
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